Pt 42-A:
Megalomania and the
Making of the Mexico-LeBaron Mind

Handsome Mexico-LeBarons Ervil, Joel, Verlan, Alma, and Floren

Somehow we learn who we really are
and then live with that decision.

Eleanor Roosevelt

I’ve long been on a quest to understand the making of the Mexico-LeBaron mind—its need to be number one, the best; in control of everyone—and always able to secure a gaggle of staunch Mormon fundamentalist followers, however small.

In this thesis, I’m perusing the phenomena wherein most of my immediate Mexico-LeBaron family’s thinking and behavior was—to differing degrees, depending on the family member—narcissistic, megalomaniacal, and maniacal. [1]

Today’s thread theorizes that psycho-sociological settings, besides epigenetics and mental illness, helped Conflagrate/kindle and inflame the Mexico-LeBaron character, including its flagrant emotional immaturity, delusional thinking, and self-aggrandizement. I hypothesize part of the historicity derives from their having been shame-based.

Shame is a mental toxin that leads to emotional instability—including pathological lying, non-self-acceptance, and not letting others in….all due to fear. [2]. Fear, part of the human survival arsenal, causes the reactive amygdala/”lizard brain” to kick in, take over, and build a protective shell.

In this state, the fearful think only about survival. But it’s a self-absorbed, shame-based, conflicted state—conflicted because it co-exists with the ego (which we all have) telling us we are, however much shame-based, the most important person in the world….at the same time the shame-based individual secretly believes everybody else in the world is better off and better than they.

This is one reason narcissists overlook other people’s needs and feelings: They believe they’re the only one lacking—the only deficient, needy, deprived person. Although they hide their feelings of inferiority, the inner contradictions cause an inferiority-superiority complex.

Not feeling good enough, not being acccepted as we are, leads to shame, non-self-acceptance, splitting from one’s authentic self, and loss of self-esteem. Humans can’t exist long feeling they aren’t loved, wanted, good enough; or are a threat to others.

When shamed and threatened by significant others, the authentic self /soul splits and withdraws to hide the real self under the floorboards or such. Then escapes into an act or dreamworld; wherein the person’s outer shell becomes the “perfect” child/ person; i.e., the opposite of what is rejected in them by others. [3]

Other consequences of the shame-based inferiority-superiority complex include self-doubt, envy, guilt, and self-hatred. Becoming shame-based begins in earliest childhood, instigated by negative experiences and abuse, including neglect and fanaticism. It ends in emotional diseases encompassing fabulizing, megalomania, and narcissism. [4]

(Continued February 13, 2020,
“Part 42-B:
Megalomania and the

Making of the Mexico-LeBaron Mind)

[1]. Megalomania | Definition of Megalomania by Merriam-Webster › dictionary › megalomania

Definition of megalomania. 1 : a mania (see mania sense 2a) for great or grandiose performance; an outburst of wildly extravagant commercial megalomania — The Times Literary Supplement (London) 2 : a delusional mental illness that is marked by feelings of personal omnipotence and grandeur.

From Wikipedia, the free encyclopediaJump to navigationJump to search1857 lithograph by Armand Gautier, showing personifications of dementiamegalomaniaacute maniamelancholiaidiocyhallucinationerotomania and paralysis in the gardens of the Hospice de la Salpêtrière.Emperor Caligula (12-41) suffered from megalomania.Megalomania is a mental illness. People with megalomania have delusional fantasies that they are more relevant(important) or powerful than they truly are. They have inflated self esteem and overestimate their powers and beliefs. 

[2]. Healing the Shame that Binds You. 11.00 14.95. Toxic shame limits the development of self esteem and causes anxiety and depression, and limits our ability to be connected in relationships. This book is for those seeking the one great thing that is missing in their life–WHOLENESS and WELLBEING.

[3[– See “Drama of the Gifted Child,” by Alice Miller The Drama of the Gifted Child | Psychology Today)

[4]. Melanie Klein:
Through the development of her own distinctive approach to psychoanalysis Kleininaugurated the school of psychoanalysis known as object relations theory, which places the motherinfant relationship at the center of personality development, and influenced the work of prominent psychologists like John Bowlby and Donald … On sociopathy, etc.

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