Famous Poet, Pioneer, and Mormon Hymn Writer, my G.G.-Uncle Joel H. Johnson, Brother of BFJ While growing up, Mother talked about her amazing Great-grandfather B.F. Johnson -- amazing not only because he was one of the American West's and Mormondom's early pioneer heroes (he helped forge the last frontier, Utah); but also because he figured…
Pt 34-O: Great-great-grandfather Benjamin F. Johnson and Familial Bipolar Disorder
"The First Command was to 'Multiply.' The Prophet taught us that Dominion & Power in the great future would be comensurate with the no [number] of 'Wives, Childin & Friends' that we inheret here. And that our great mission to earth was to Organize a Neculi of Heaven to take with us. To the increase…
Poetry by Stephany Spencer-LeBaron: Prose The New Poetry
Prose Is the New Poetry by Stephany Spencer-LeBaron Photo by Nu00f3ra Zahradnu00edk on Pexels.com A poem is never finished. PROSE IS THE NEW POETRYPart OneDearest Friend,Says VoltairTo hold a pen is to be at war.And don't we know it If we are a lyrical poet!For today's fake poetsHave taken the lion's share. With pen in hand And lack…
Pt 34-N: The LeBaron Madmen: Button, Button: Who Got the Button?
Pt 34-N: The LeBaron Madmen: Button, Button: Who Got the Button? Pt 34-N: The LeBaron Madmen: Button, Button: Who Got the Button? The above Photo shows five of the seven "Mexico-LeBaron madmen", Mother's brothers, who claimed to be "The One Mighty and Strong" at one time or another in their life. From left to right,…
Pt 34-M: The Mexico-LeBaron Madmen and Button, Button: Who’s Got the Button?
Pictured are five of the seven "One Mighty & Strong" LeBaron Boys (left to right): Verlan, Floren, Ervil, Joel, and Alma “Polygamy: Where a Prophet/Profit is made by fleecing his sheep!” ~Rebecca Kimbel Cont. from Pt 34-L: I left off last week stating: At one time, my uncle's Ben, Wesley, Joel, AND Ervil were ALL…
Pt 34-L: The LeBaron Madmen: Button, Button: Who’s Got the Button?
My Brilliant Uncle Ben Gone Bonkers Instrumental:A memoir of madness, medication, and musicJames Rhodes In blog "Pt 34-J," I discussed the novelty of my Grandpa Dayer LeBaron and his son Ben -- and probably his son Ross Wesley Sr., too [1] -- holding concurrently the Johnson mantle/Right of the Firstborn/OM&S scepter of power.That's not only…
Pt 34-K: The LeBaron Madmen: Button, Button: Who’s Got the Button?
Musician, Writer, and Mormon Fundi, Esther LeBaron-McDonald Spencer "Whether your memoir ever gets published isn't finally the point. There are many good reasons for writing that have nothing to do with getting published. Whatever we call the form–autobiography, memoir, personal history, Family history–writing about one's life is a powerful human need."Writers are the custodians of memory, and…
Pt 34-J: The LeBaron Madmen: Button, Button: Who’s Got the Button?
My Grandpa Alma Dayer LeBaron's five youngest sons, "The Mexico-LeBaron Boys:" Left to right: Floren, Alma, Verlan, Joel, and Ervil "Now, I don't go along with either Joel's movement or Verlan's movement or Ervil's; and now there's a Floren, another brothren, and he's trying to start a movement."Ross Wesley LeBaron Sr.(Alma Dayer LeBaron's second-oldest son)…
Poetry & Songs by Stephany Spencer- LeBaron: Life’s Dash
LIFE'S DASH My Cousin the Famous Eddie LeBaron “There'll be two dates on your tombstoneAnd all your friends will read ‘em;But all that's going to matterIs that little dash between ‘em.”Kevin Welch LIFE'S DASHby Stephany Spencer-LeBaron 1- Between the dates of birth and death,There's always a little dash – To me it depicts life's runtime So…
Pt 34-I: The LeBaron Madmen: Button, Button, Who’s Got the Button?”
Hangdog-face Pedo-plyg Alex Joseph with his 12-year-old child bride---part of his harem [1] "I was once the world's greatest polygamist and I got cut out by Alex Joseph. He is smarter than I am. He's got more wives than I have ... He's in the herb business ... Ginseng ..."Ross Wesley LeBaron Sr [2] I…
Pt 34-H: The Mexico-LeBarons and Button, Button, Who’s Got the Button?”
Continued from "Pt 34-G: The Mexico-LeBarons: Button, Button, Who's Got the Button?" Ross Wesley LeBaron Sr., age 24ish, with first wife Thelma Cox and daughter Elena (Courtesy of "Family Search" and Mary Bonnelle Taylor) "I hold the patriarchal keys of Joseph Smith's house. My mother's still alive and she never favored me. My father gave…
Poetry & Songs by Stephany Spencer-LeBaron: Bio Ballads in Verse for Better or Worse
Circa 1958: 11 of my parents' ultimately 14 children(I'm age 12, middle row, 2nd to left) Bio Ballad in Verse for Better or Worseby Stephany Spencer-LeBaronI was born some time agoAway out in the sticksIn Mexico’s Rocky Mountain RangeIn 1946.Then raised in Mormon Fundy cultsWhere self-righteous hicksThink it sinfulWith…
Pt 34-G: The Mexico-LeBaron Madmen: Button, Button, Who’s Got the Button?”
Incest Pedo-Plyg Ross Wesley LeBaron, Jr. with wife Diana Leany [1] Cousin Owen LeBaron, and (?) "POLYGAMY: Paid for primarily by your tax dollars!"Rebecca Kimbel "Religions are the smelters and founders of imagination. The more any religion’s imagination—Hindu, Christian, Jewish, Muslim [Mormon], Buddhist—is shaped in an isolated bubble, or in a dark cave, the more…
Media of Stephany Spencer- LeBaron’s Extended Family, Friends, and Fundamentalist Mormon Cults
Media on My Extended Family, Friends and Fundamentalist Mormon Cults Note: Much of what I have posted here was posted years ago. I've not updated it although I know there is much more I could now Post if time allowed. E.g.: Daughters of the Cult, a Docuseries on Hulu. Deliver Us From Ervil, a Podcast…
Pt 34-F: The Mexico-LeBarons: Button, Button, Who’s Got the Button?”
Alma Dayer LeBaron Sr.'s second-oldest son Ross Wesley LeBaron Sr., Mormon fundamentalist and "Religion Maker:" Founder of "The Holy Order and The Church of the Firstborn" (Jan. 1984 Photo taken by/Courtesy of Tom Green) "My brother Joel helped me set up the church of the Firstborn of the Fullness of Times in 1955. "He agreed…
Poetry by Stephany Spencer- LeBaron: My Life’s a Wreck!
LIFE'S A SHIP WRECK! LIFE'S A SHIP WRECKMy life's a shipwreck! Or should I conclude That ship has sailed Like two ships passing in the night Coming unglued? I could say Life's a train wreck. Or has that train Left the station too, Like two trains Passing a wreck or two? I've lived a long time ...…
“Pt 34-E: The Mexico-LeBarons: Button, Button: Who’s Got the Button?”
My great-great-grandfather Benjamin Franklin Johnson/BFJ, Mormon Pioneer, Patriarch, and Prophet Joseph Smith's Power of Attorney "And it shall come to pass that I, the Lord God, will send one mighty and strong, holding the sceptre of power in his hand, clothed with light for a covering, whose mouth shall utter words, eternal words; while his…
Poetry by Stephany Spencer-LeBaron: Comedians Madigan and Gaffigan
Jim Gaffigan Madigan and Gaffigan By Stephany Spencer-LeBaronBrilliant Comedian Jim GaffiganMakes me laugh then laugh again. His moniker “Mr. Universe"He has earned thru action and verse –He's a dynamo driving forward in reverse!Most comedians lewdly gesture and curse.Their Acts are loaded with smut and worse.Lacking enough humor that isn't lame, They employ obscenities –They show…
Pt 34-D: The Mexico-LeBarons: Their Messianic Missions
Benjamin F. Johnson, Joseph Smith's brother-in-law, confidant, and early Mormon pioneer “One cannot change what one refuses to look at. Understanding their point of view, their position, and how they got that way is a beginning.”REBECCA KIMBEL My uncle Joel Franklin LeBaron wasn't much different from his father Alma Dayer who, before him, claimed to…
Pt 34-C: The Mexico-LeBarons: Their Messianic Missions
Pt 34-C: The Mexico-LeBarons: Their Messianic Missions (1) Joseph Smith, Benjamin F Johnson, Alma Dayer LeBaron, and Joel Franklin LeBaron “Fundamentalist ideologies can be thought of as mental parasites. A parasite does not usually kill the host it inhabits, as it is critically dependent on it for survival. Instead, it feeds off it and changes…
Poetry by Stephany Spencer- LeBaron: Lovely Lively Lizards
LOVELY LIVELY LIZARDS:The Best Things in Life Are FreeI detest supporting lazy lizards –Leeches, losers, Welfare abusers.Socialism is Welfare for Users.And it's NOT free.So loafing lizards,Penniless-paupers,Down-and-out dizzards,Jump-start yer rump,Produce some gump, Use your gizzard,Get off Welfare –Be scissored!A sloganHumbly delivered: Be part of the solution,Not Pollution Blizzard.I LOVE living lizards literally! :)- While loafers use Society,These…
Pt 34-B: The Mexico-LeBarons and Their Messianic Missions”
Mormon pioneer and polygamist Benjamin F. Johnson, Dayer LeBaron's grandfather, and Joseph Smith's confidant and brother-in-law “A wise person once said that people see what they want to see. That seems to be especially true in religion! Many of them just can't resist trying to shine brighter than the rest; even if the lights aren't…
Poetry by Stephany Spencer-LeBaron: The Sands of My Hourglass Figure
THE SANDS OF MY HOURGLASS FIGUREIN MY TIMEBy Stephany Spencer-LeBaron THE SANDS OF MY HOURGLASS FIGUREIN MY TIMEThe sands of my hourglass figureGradually disfiguring meSay my time is almost up,I've little leftTo complete Life's journey.Still Time ticks away the minutesQuickly like handsOn my inner circadian clock.I can't make the sands stop,Nor my heart Pit-pattering tick-tockLike raindrops drippingFrom…
Pt 34-A: Esther LeBaron Spencer, The Mexico-LeBarons, and Hearing Voices
Pt 34-A: Esther LeBaron Spencer, The Mexico LeBarons, and Hearing Voices The young and the old of my Grandpa Dayer LeBaron "There is only one way to bring a child upin the way he should goand that is to travel that way yourself."Abraham Lincoln IF it's true Grandpa Dayer's grandfather B.F. Johnson said he held a…
Poem/Doggerel I wrote: Battle of the Bulge
Battle of the Bulge BATTLE OF THE BULGEBy Stephany Spencer-LeBaron When it comes to food,I long for resistance.Stuffing to stuff holesFor Psychic subsistenceEndangers physical substance.So I’m forced to keep grubAt a dastardly distance, Plus emend my daily existence.Food and I have a Con-coexistence:Victuals cause me hunger With perpetual persistence –That ever-gnawing craving For fattening ingredients.In attempting to outdistance Tempting incidents,I exercise…
TEST PAGE – Pt 30-33: My Mexico LeBaron Family: Bipolar Issues & Incest
Pt 30: My Mama Esther LeBaron Spencer, Me, and Mental Illness My parents in 1964 with 13 of their 14 children "A mother's love for her childis like nothing else in the world. It knows no law, no pity; it dares all things, and crushes down remorselesslyall that stands in its path."Agatha Christie Mother once…
Pt 33: The Mexico-LeBarons and Familial Incest
Pt 33: The Mexico-LeBarons and Familial Incest * My maternal great-grandparents Lucinda Mariah Emmerson and William Wesley McDonald "The heart of the mother is a deep abyss at the bottom of which you will always find forgiveness."Honore De Balzac Incest on my maternal grandfather Alma Dayer LeBaron's side definitely contributed to the mental illness prevalent in…
Pt 32: Esther LeBaron Spencer, The Mexico-LeBarons, and Mental Illness
Pt 32: Esther LeBaron Spencer, the Mexico-LeBarons, and Mental Illness "The conscience of children is formed by the influences that surrounded them;their notions of good and evil are the result ofthe moral atmosphere they breathe."Jean Paul Richter We left off last week with this assertion: People should take responsibility for their actions; not project blame…
Pt 43: Esther LeBaron Spencer and Lesbian Love
Pt 43: Esther LeBaron Spencer and Lesbian Love Circa 1935: Esther LeBaron Spencer (right) & companion "All I am I owe to my mother. I attribute all my success in life to the moral, intellectual, and physical education I received from her." George Washington Pt 43: My Mama Esther LeBaron Spencer and Lesbian Love In…
Poem/Song I Wrote: Happy-New-Year Medley
HAPPY NEW YEAR!2024 IS HERE!! By Stephany Spencer-LeBaron(to tune of Auld Lang Syne)1- Now 2024 is here,We're all one year older;Everyone has grown;We are now much bolder.So let's make a resolutionTo not be the problem –Only the solutionTo our problems, every one.2- Let us spread hope and good cheerFrom here till December,'Cause, when all is said and done,That's what…
Pt 31-D: Esther LeBaron Spencer, The-Mexico-LeBarons, and Mental Illness
Pt 31-D: Esther LeBaron Spencer, The-Mexico-LeBarons, and Mental Illness ~Picking up where we left off on "Pt 31-C: My Mama Esther LeBaron Spencer, The- Mexico-LeBarons, and Mental Illness": X-- Another factor leading to mental problems in the Dayer and Maud LeBaron family is: They held much in because they were supposed to be perfect Mormon…
Pt 31-C: Esther LeBaron Spencer, the Mexico-LeBarons, and Mental Illness
Pt 31-C: Esther LeBaron Spencer, the Mexico-LeBarons, and Mental Illness My maternal Grandpa, Alma Dayer LeBaron "He did the wrong thing for the right reason." Stephany Spencer-LeBaron Repeating what was said in previous blogs, both my mother and Grandmother Maud LeBaron believed the cause of mental illness in their immediate family was mainly…
Pt 31-B: Esther LeBaron Spencer, The Mexico LeBarons, and Mental Illness
Pt 31-B: Esther LeBaron Spencer, The Mexico LeBarons, and Mental Illness 1920: passport photo of Dayer and Maud LeBaron with their first six out of 13 children they would eventually have "As you work on your memoir, write with fidelity to your own experience while knowing that memory is fallible. Write with respect for your…
Pt 31-A: Esther LeBaron Spencer, the Mexico LeBarons, and Mental Illness
Pt 31-A: Esther LeBaron Spencer, the Mexico LeBarons, and Mental Illness Grandpa Alma Dayer LeBaron and his second oldest daughter Lucinda LeBaron Butchereit "No influence is so powerful as that of the mother." Sarah Josepha Hale As I said in the previous blog, both my mother and maternal grandmother Maud LeBaron believed the cause of mental illness in their…
Pt 30: Esther LeBaron Spencer, Me, and Mental Illness
Pt 30: Esther LeBaron Spencer, Me, and Mental Illness My parents in 1964 with their 13 out of 14 children "A mother's love for her childis like nothing else in the world. It knows no law, no pity; it dares all things, and crushes down remorselesslyall that stands in its path."Agatha Christie Mother once confided in me: "I…
Pt 21-29: More Memories of My Parents Esther LeBaron and Floyd Spencer
~ Pt 21: Ma, Pa, Me, and Polygamy on Parade “Civilization is social ordersupporting cultural creativity.”Will Durant Taking up from "Pt 20-A-J: Ma, Pa, Me, and Polygamy on Parade," it bears restating that one of my Mormon fundamentalist sisters who married so many Misters never ever caught on ... never bothered to catch on how to check out, before she…
Pt 29: Esther LeBaron Spencer and Grandma Maud LeBaron
Pt 29: Esther LeBaron Spencer and Grandma Maud LeBaron My mama Esther with her mama, my Grandmama Maud "The hand that rocks the cradle rules the nation and its destiny." South African Proverb I wonder: Did my attractive mama Esther LeBaron marry a father figure---my papa Floyd Spencer was 26 years older than she. Could part of…
Me, my twin sisters Judith and Sharon on Mom's lap, and my sister Doris “Home is wherever I'm with you.”“HOME” by Edward Sharpand the Magnetic Zeros “Home,” by Edward Sharp and the Magnetic Zeros https://youtu.be/LzPPAw5tnqs "Home is whenever I'm with you."Edward Sharpe* Beginning where we left off in "Pt 27: More Memories of My Mama Esther…
Pt 27: More Memories of My Parents Esther LeBaron and Floyd Spencer
My father and mother standing on their land "the Galeana Springs" Pt 27: More Memories of My Mom Esther LeBaron and Dad Floyd Spencer "One I love with all my heart,Mother, dear, it's you;And I want to make you glad;Yes, indeed, I do!I will help you every day,Smiling as I go,And I'll never make you…
Pt 26: More Memories of My Mom Esther LeBaron Spencer
Pt 26: More Memories of My Mom Esther LeBaron Spencer My mother Esther LeBaron-McDonald Spencer at age 21 "You can never go home." Sinclair Lewis Another variable in the equivocation, as to Mom's virginity on her wedding night, is the following (Perhaps I'm throwing a hand grenade into the equation?): When I was about fourteen, Momma told…
Pt 25: Esther LeBaron Spencer, Pa, Me, ‘n’ Polygamy
Pt 25: Esther LeBaron Spencer, Pa, Me, 'n' Polygamy My parents and nine of their then 10 children in 1956 or 1957. I'm around 10 or 11 years old in this picture--just got back from cherry-picking in a friend's orchard so my hair is all mussed up. "Never complain about what your parents couldn't give…
Pt 24: Ma, Pa, Me, and Polygamy on Parade
Pt 24: Ma, Pa, Me, and Polygamy on Parade Life's HighwayTo everyone their openethA way, ways, and a way;And the high soul takes the high way,The low soul takes the low;While in between on the misty flatsThe rest drift to and fro.But to everyone their openethA high way and low.And everyone decidethThe way his soul…
Pt 23: Ma, Pa, Me, and Polygamy on Parade
My Memoir: Ma, Pa, Me, and Polygamy on Parade -- Part 23 "People see what they want to see till they want to see." Dena McLean (My cousin) I left off in blog, "Pt 22: Ma, Pa, Me, and Polygamy on Parade," saying: Mama preached polygamy and told people they would go to hell if they did…
Pt 22: Ma, Pa, Me, and Polygamy on Parade
Pt 22: Ma Pa, Me, and Polygamy on Parade As you work on your memoir,tell your story true, artfully and with courage,writing with fidelity to your own experiencewhile knowing that memory is fallible.Tracy Seeley.My Ruby Slippers, Repeating what was said in "Pt 21: Ma Pa, Me, and Polygamy on Parade, "I'm not proud of what…
Pt 21: Ma, Pa, Me, and Polygamy on Parade
~ Pt 21: Ma, Pa, Me, and Polygamy on Parade “Civilization is social ordersupporting cultural creativity.”Will Durant Taking up from "Pt 20-A-J: Ma, Pa, Me, and Polygamy on Parade," it bears restating that one of my Mormon fundamentalist sisters who married so many Misters never ever caught on ... never bothered to catch on how to check out, before she…
Pt 20: A-J: Ma, Pa, Me, and Polygamy on Parade
Pt 20-A: Ma, Pa, Me, and Polygamy-On-The-Down-Low Tom Weston said you can tell God created people in his own image because he hates all the same people, coincidentally, that you do. (The Christian far-right) I left off in "My Memoir: Esther LeBaron McDonald de Spencer -- And Polygamy On the Down-Low, Part 19-Z" remarking on a trip…
Pt 20-J: Ma, Pa, Me, and Polygamy on Parade
Pt 20-J: Ma, Pa, Me, and Polygamy on Parade People see what they want to see, believe what they want to believe; It's impossible to reason with an irrational person. Stephany Spencer I left off in "Pt 20-I: Ma, Pa, Me, and Polygamy on Parade" saying in the cult I came from, a Mormon fundamentalist man usually…
Pt 20-I: Ma, Pa, Me, and Polygamy on Parade
Pt 20-I: Ma, Pa, Me, and Polygamy on Parade My family in 1964 -- one sister absent) Abuse: “When fear rules, Obedience is the only survival choice." Toni Morrison "God Help the Child" My parents, though trying prodigiously to do what was right, foolishly spawned a bunch of foot-washing fundamentalist children bound by fear and…
Pt 20-H: Ma, Pa, Me, and Polygamy Parasites
Listen on YouTube to my Aunt Irene (Kunz-LeBaron) Spencer's half-sister, my aunt-in-law Rebecca Kunz Kimbel's outstanding interview of Author Ed Kociela who wrote two excellent books I recommend: "Plygs," and "Plygs 2."* Till we learn from past mistakes, we're bound to repeat them and pass them on to our progeny ad infinitum in the form…
Pt 20-G, Ma, Pa, Me, and Polygamy Parasites
My Memoir: Pt 20-G, Ma, Pa, Me, and Polygamy Parasites “Everything can be taken from a person but one thing: The last of the human freedoms – to choose one's attitude in any given set of circumstances, to choose one's own way. Viktor Frankel "Man’s Search for Meaning” Continuing where we left off in "Pt 20-F, Ma,…
Pt 20-F: Ma, Pa, Me, and Polygamy on-the-down-low
Pt 20-F: Ma, Pa, Me, and Polygamy on-the-down-low Notes from a Chat Site: "Narcissists make me melt down and cry like a child. It is a remarkable trick Narcissists pull. They are petty and acquisitive -- and have no scruples. They value themselves by how much they can steal from someone else through cunning, manipulation, or simply believing they are…
Pt 20-E: Ma, Pa, Me, and Polygamy On-The-Down-Low
"You have to have standards, no matter how low!" Anne Lamott Picking up from the previous blog, "Part 20-D: Ma, Pa, Me, and Polygamy On-The-Down-Low:" Previously I said William Preston Tucker/ AKA: Bill, the 26-year-old polygamist I was pawned off on, was commonly two-faced. It was too important for him to be liked. And in order to be…
Pt 20-D: Ma, Pa, Me, and Polygamy On-The-Down-Low
Law 27 "People have an overwhelming desire to believe in something. Become the focal point of such desire by offering them a clause, a new faith to follow. Keep your words vague but full of promise; emphasize enthusiasm over rationality and clear thinking. Give your new disciples rituals to perform. Ask them to make sacrifices on…
Pt 20-C: Ma, Pa, Me, and Polygamy On-The-Down-Low
Pt 20-C: Ma, Pa, Me, and Polygamy On-The-Down-Low Advice on How to Handle Overt/ Covert Narcissists: Saying "I do not consent" won't work with narcissists: They don't care about boundaries. They will keep coming at you. Look up "grey rock," quietly let authorities know of the toxic person, and, so you are taken seriously, allude…
Pt 20-B: Ma, Pa, Me, and Polygamy On-The-Down-Low
Pt 20-B: Ma, Pa, Me, and Polygamy On-The-Down-Low My parents Esther LeBaron-McDonald and Floyd Otto Spencer "To describe my mother would be to write about a hurricane in its perfect power." Maya Angelou I left off with "My Memoir: Esther LeBaron McDonald de Spencer -- And Polygamy On The Down-Low -- Part 20-A." Let's now backtrack a few blogs…
Pt 20-A: Ma, Pa, Me, and Polygamy-On-The-Down-Low
Tom Weston said you can tell God created people in his own image because he hates all the same people, coincidentally, that you do. (The Christian far-right) I left off in "My Memoir: Esther LeBaron McDonald de Spencer -- And Polygamy On the Down-Low, Part 19-Z" remarking on a trip I went on with Bill to…
Pt 19-Z: Esther LeBaron Spencer, Me, and Polygamy On-The-Down-Low
My Memoir: Part 19-Z: Esther LeBaron McDonald de Spencer -- And Polygamy On The Down-Low Women Beware: Philanderers are Opportunists: Big Pretenders. They will tell anybody anything they want to hear. How can you tell if they're lying? Their lips are moving. If a person will break a marriage contract, he or she will break any…
Pt 19-Y: Esther LeBaron Spencer, Me, and Polygamy On-The-Down-Low
Part 19-Y: Esther LeBaron McDonald de Spencer And Polygamy On The Down-Low William Preston Tucker age 28, six-month-old Asenath Marie, and myself Beulah Stephany Spencer-LeBaron de Tucker age 18 A Reflection: Is God then so ignorant of things,so unacquainted with the human heartthat He has to find out about a man by testing him?Of course not. It is…
Pt 19-X: Esther LeBaron Spencer, Me, and Polygamy On-The-Down-Low
Part 19-X -- Esther LeBaron McDonald de Spencer -- And Polygamy On-The-Down-Low Online Chat Notes Denote NPD: Narcissistic Personality Disorder Said one woman, "You know, it's so funny: I used to think my Ex was the most kind, loving, good-hearted man I ever met. I used to think he was such a treasure and that I didn't deserve him. When…
Poetry by Stephany Spencer LeBaron : Ponderin’ ‘n Wanderin’: A Conversation With Self
The Thinker Ponderin' 'n Wanderin':A Conversation with SelfAt seventy-one I'm hungBy protruding nailsOn my ladder's last rung,Wonderin' what else I might've won.Should I try for more Before Life's done?Or should I commit to recreation,Cease ambition and aspiration,Cease trying to make more of myself,Simplify life, put struggle on the shelf?Thus I wonder as I ponder 'n wander.But…
Pt 19-W: Esther LeBaron Spencer, Me, and Polygamy On-The-Down-Low
Part 19-W, Esther LeBaron McDonald de Spencer -- And Polygamy On-The-Down-Low William Preston Tucker and Stephen Silver People don't see what they don't want to see till they want to see. Stephany Spencer Taking up where we left off in, "My Memoir: Esther LeBaron McDonald de Spencer -- And Polygamy On-The-Down-Low, Part 19-V": Being an adolescent nineteen year…
Poetry by Stephany Spencer-LeBaron: In My Time
IN MY TIME(A Stephany Spencer Doggerel Rhyme)In my timeI won’t give in, I won’t give up.I’ll let today’s mirthFill up my cup.In the darkest hours Of our imperfect worldI’ll look to the dawnAs day’s unfurled.Then hold up my hopeHold up my head.I won’t be troubledBy what is said.Placing one foot In front of the other I'll keep on trekkingWith sister…
Pt 19-V: Esther LeBaron Spencer, Me, and Polygamy On-The-Down-Low
Part 19-V, Esther LeBaron McDonald de Spencer -- And Polygamy On-The-Down-Low "You own everything that happened to you. Tell your stories. If people wanted you to write warmly about them, they should've behaved better." Anne Lamott, "Bird by Bird" I left off in "My Memoir: Esther LeBaron McDonald de Spencer -- And Polygamy On-The-Down-Low, Part 19-U"…
Pt 19-U: Esther LeBaron Spencer, Me, and Polygamy On-The-Down-Low
Part 19-U -- Esther LeBaron McDonald de Spencer -- And Polygamy On-The-Down-Low Left to right: Me, hubby Billy, 1st wife "Overlord" Marilyn, 2nd wife Lolita--both wearing makeup; not I. 'Twas against our religion. "A memoir is your perception of your experience of your involvement in a particular situation in your life. It is not your sister’s, it…
Poem I wrote: “Frothing at the Mouth”
FROTHING AT THE MOUTHIt infuriates me, It froths my mouth That pushy Beth A-hole, Corralled me into her “pen” again To write for her "pad" — Her newsletter! Then she whiplashed me Into her "automobile" To further wrap The noose about my neck Then squeeze it! She’s a hornet like Irit. I can't take…
Pt 19-T: Esther LeBaron Spencer, Me, and More Perils of Polygamy: My Honeymoon
Part 19-T: Esther LeBaron McDonald de Spencer And More Perils of Polygamy: My Honeymoon Bill and I "cutting the cake" "The sharing of stories broadens our outlook on life. People identify with and draw strength from reading about the struggles of others. Readers can ‘try on’ the life of the character/s in the story, and see how they would…
Pt 19-S: Esther LeBaron Spencer, Me, and More Perils of Polygamy: My Honeymoon
Part 19-S, Esther LeBaron McDonald de Spencer And More Perils of Polygamy:My Honeymoon Billy and me in 1963, Ages 16 and 26 consecutively “And we are put on this earth a little space that we might learn to bear the beams of love” ― William Blake I left off in "My Memoir: Part 19-R, Esther LeBaron McDonald…
Poem/Doggerel I wrote: “Ladies Looking for Love in All the Wrong Places”
-LOOKING FOR LOVE IN ALL THE WRONG PLACESDoes low self-esteemCause womanizers' chase?Is scoring Ladies all MenHave going for their race!What the fuck then! Such lousy luck for womenWhen the womanizers' journey Is but playing the field/pen.Then I'll never give in again ...Never yieldTo the self-serving "little head" Seeking to be fulfilled.Just wish I'd…
Poetry by Stephany Spencer-LeBaron: Tips From Tony: Emote the Emotion
TIPS FROM TONY:Emote the Emotionby Stephany Spencer-LeBaronEmote the emotionOver-and-overYou want to feelSays Tony Robbins,Motivational Speaker And guru like Doctors Dyer and Phil. Says Tony:To change our emotion Change our motion.We’re at the wheel.Changing physiologyChanges emotions.It's a done deal.Stand tall and proudWhen feeling afraid.Sing a happy tuneTo also aid.Sitting erect when feeling badOr turning frowns upside downWhen…
Pt 19-R: Esther LeBaron Spencer, Me, and More Perils of Polygamy: My Honeymoon
My Memoirs: Part 19-R, Esther LeBaron McDonald de Spencer -- And More Perils of Polygamy: My Honeymoon My swollen-eyed Honeymoon photo, October 1963. We Honeymooned in a cheap hotel in Chihuahua City, Mexico; no screens on the windows but plenty of mosquitoes. "We all come from the past, and children ought to know what it was that went into…
Pt 19-Q: Esther LeBaron Spencer, Me, and More Perils of Polygamy
Part 19-Q -- Esther LeBaron McDonald de Spencer -- And More Perils of Polygamy Could This be Bill with his first two wives, "horny toads" in a menage a trois? Sex, drugs, 'n' "rock 'n' roll" -- Rock on! "The truth told with love and consideration is the key. An honest account of what you experienced is…
Pt 19-P: Esther LeBaron Spencer, Me, and More Perils of Polygamy
My Memoir: Part 19-P -- Esther LeBaron McDonald de Spencer -- More Perils of Polygamy “As I sifted through my memories, my life came to me in bits and pieces, often disconnected, just like my dreams. Even normal memory has gaps, but traumatic memory is even more discontinuous. This is my story, which put…
Pt 19-O: Esther LeBaron Spencer, Me, and More Perils of Polygamy
My Memoir, Part 19-O: Esther LeBaron McDonald de Spencer -- And More Perils of Polygamy https://youtu.be/TqnyTqH55jw "Leaders who win the respect of others are the ones who deliver more than they promise, not the ones who promise more than they can deliver." Mark A. Clement Taking up where I left off in my blog "My Memoir: Esther LeBaron McDonald…
Part 19-N: Esther LeBaron Spencer, me and More Perils of Polygamy
My Memoir, Part 19-N: Esther LeBaron McDonald de Spencer -- And More Perils of Polygamy From left to right: My Uncle Ervil M. LeBaron; My father, Floyd Otto Spencer; My mother, Esther LeBaron McDonald de Spencer; and My husband William Preston Tucker/ Bill The Virginity Try as he will, no man breaks wholly loose From his first…
Part 19-M: Esther LeBaron Spencer, me and More Perils of Polygamy
My Memoir, Part 19-M: Esther LeBaron McDonald de Spencer -- And More Perils of Polygamy "To handle your self, use your head; to handle others, use your heart. George Bernard Shaw Taking up where we left off in"My Memoir: Esther LeBaron McDonald de Spencer -- And More Perils of Polygamy -- Part 19-L": Bill's second wife, Lolita, played mouthpiece for "the family" when,…
Part 19-L: Esther LeBaron Spencer, Me and More Perils of Polygamy
My Memoir Part 19-L: Esther LeBaron McDonald de Spencer -- More Perils of Polygamy Two of Bill's Mormon French-missionary friends, LDS "Saints" "Dick 'n' Peter" "By their friends, ye shall know them." Biblical Adidge Taking up where we left off in "My Memoir: Esther LeBaron McDonald de Spencer -- And More Perils of Polygamy, Part 19-K": I said in an earlier…
Part 19-K: Esther LeBaron Spencer, Me and More Perils of Polygamy
My Memoir, Part 19-K: Esther LeBaron McDonald de Spencer -- and More Perils of Polygamy "True leadership must be for the benefit of the followers, not the enrichment of the leaders." Warren G. Bennis Taking up where we left off in "My Memoir Backstory: Esther LeBaron McDonald de Spencer -- And More Perils of Polygamy, Part…
Part 19-J: Esther LeBaron Spencer, Me and More Perils of Polygamy
My Memoir, Part 19-J: Esther LeBaron McDonald de Spencer -- And More Perils of Polygamy "Human history becomes more and more a race between education and catastrophe." H.G. Wells Taking up where we left off in my last blog, "My Memoir: Esther LeBaron McDonald de Spencer -- And More Perils of Polygamy -- Part 19-I": My husband William Preston Tucker/ Bill Had…
Part 19-I: Esther LeBaron Spencer, Me and More Perils of Polygamy
My Memoir, Part 19-I: Esther LeBaron McDonald de Spencer -- And More Perils of Polygamy Beulah Stephany Spencer-LeBaron in 1972, age 26, and soon to graduate from UCLA after escaping polygamy in 1967!! "Man, created in God's image and likeness, is not just flesh and blood. The sexual instinct is not all that he has: Man is also,…
Part 19-H: Esther LeBaron Spencer, Me, and More Perils of Polygamy
My Memoir, Part 19-H: Esther LeBaron McDonald de Spencer -- And More Perils of Polygamy "History is little more than the register of the crimes, follies, and misfortunes of mankind." Edward Gibbon I left off in "My Memoir: Esther LeBaron McDonald de Spencer -- And More Perils of Polygamy -- Part 19-G" relating how I had come to realize people did not just…
Part 19-G: Esther LeBaron Spencer, Me and More Perils of Polygamy
My Memoir, Part 19-G: Esther LeBaron McDonald de Spencer -- And More Perils of Polygamy "Use power to help people. For we are given power not to advance our own purposes nor to make a great show in the world, nor a name. There is but one just use of power and it is to serve people."…
Part 19-F: Esther LeBaron Spencer, Me and More Perils of Polygamy
My Memoir, Part 19-F: Esther LeBaron McDonald de Spencer -- And More Perils of Polygamy "Leadership is not wielding authority – It's empowering people." Becky Brodin I left off in "My Memoir: Esther LeBaron McDonald de Spencer -- And More Perils of Polygamy -- Part 19-E" on the following note: I Now know my mother's brother, Ervil LeBaron, was a psychopath and sociopath…
Poem I wrote: Cougar Lives To Love Another Day
Cougar lives to love another day Cougar Lives to Love Another DayBy Stephany Spencer-LeBaron2008Hey King Kay, Your cougar lives To love another day,To further bond With wondrous King Kay.Cougaress never dreamed It could be this way: First he was her friend, Then her boyfriend; Now her husband – Her Kind King Kay.Cougaress lives for him each day.People call her a cougar.You've robbed the…
Part 19-E: Esther LeBaron Spencer, Me and More Perils of Polygamy
My Memoir:Part 19-E:Esther LeBaron Spencer, Me, And More Perils of Polygamy Circa 1961: Beulah/Stephany Spencer-LeBaron, age 14, on our homestead in Colonia LeBaron,clotheslines and grapevines in the background An important question for leaders: 'Am I building people, Or building my dreamAnd using people to do it?' John Maxwell I left off in MY MEMOIREsther LeBaron Spencer, Me, And More Perils of Polygamy Part…
Pt 19-D: Esther LeBaron Spencer, Me, and More Perils of Polygamy
MY MEMOIRPart 19-D: Esther LeBaron Spencer, Me,And More Perils of Polygamy "The successful leader Is the one who makes The right move at the right moment With the right motive."John Maxwell Continued from:MY MEMOIR Esther LeBaron-McDonald-Spencer, Me,And More Perils of Polygamy, Part 19-C NOTE:I'm a poet but my medium is prose In parts of the following memories I disclose: I'm barely sixteen, parked…
Part 19-C: Esther LeBaron- McDonald-Spencer, Me, and More Perils of Polygamy
MY MEMOIR Esther LeBaron-McDonald-Spencer, Me and More Perils of PolygamyPart 19-C Circa 1962: Beulah/AKA: Stephany Spencer-LeBaron age 16 On our ranch in Colonia LeBaron, Galeana, Chihuahua, Mexico. Nearly all men can stand adversity,But if you want to test a man's character, Give him power. Abraham Lincoln MY MEMOIR Esther LeBaron-McDonald-Spencer Me and More Perils of PolygamyPart 19-CCOUSIN HOMER'S KISSIn Cousin Homer's kissThere'd be no connubial bliss –Though my first…
Pt 19-B: Esther LeBaron Spencer, Me, and More Perils of Polygamy
MY MEMOIRPart 19-B Esther LeBaron McDonald de Spencer, Me, and More Perils of Polygamy The middle photo is the way I remember myUncle Ervil M. LeBaron in the 1960s A wise leader inspires and motivates, rather than intimidating and manipulating.Henry Ford Continuing where we left off in the previous blog,wherein my life was being hijacked in the name of…
Part 19-A: Ma, Pa, Me, and Perils of Polygamy
MY MEMOIRPart 19-A Esther LeBaron McDonald de Spencer: Ma, Pa, Me,And the Perils of Polygamy No influence is so powerfulas the that of the mother. Sarah Josepha Hale Picking up from: MY MEMOIREsther LeBaron McDonald de Spencer:Ma 'n' PaPART 18 As I've bemoaned before, Mummsy couldn't live polygamy herself – at least not during her twenty-two years of marriage…
Pt 41-A–M: “More on” Mexico-LeBaron Madness
Pt 41-A:Esther LeBaron Spencer and"More on" LeBaron Madness My mother Esther LeBaron-McDonald Spencer "What lies behind usand what lies before usare tiny matters compared towhat lies within us."Ralph Waldo Emerson In "Parts 39–40-B:Esther LeBaron Spencer;Ma, Pa, Me, and Pitfalls of Polygamy,"I discussed issues of perfectionism in my grandparents Maud and Dayer LeBaron's family.But also of issue…
Pt 41-F: Ross Wesley LeBaron Sr and “More on” LeBaron Madness
Pt 41-F: Ross Wesley LeBaron Sr and "More on" LeBaron Madness Ross Wesley LeBaron Sr's son Ross LeBaron Jr with first wife Diana Leany *NOTE: An acquaintance sent the following interesting but old news clipping she found on Tumblr: "Ross Wesley LeBaron Sr's oldest son, Ross LeBaron Jr, famously has his own cult in which…
Pt 38-C: Farewell to Floren McDonald LeBaron: The Last of the LeBarons
Farewell to Floren McDonald LeBaron: The Last of The LeBarons FLOREN MCDONALD LEBARON The Last FarewellIN MEMORIAM "THE BEST IS YET TO COME!"(My Uncle Floren's favorite saying)~~~On February 17, 2019, Two months before his 92nd birthday, Floren McDonald LeBaron Left this earthly helm To join his family In a heavenly realm. Fourth youngest of thirteen children,…
Poem I wrote: Dr. Kwak Treats Gullibles Galore!
Dr. Kwak Treats Gullibles Galore! by Stephany Spencer-LeBaronA Quack and a sucker is born every Second. DR. KWAK Quacks’ Doctor plaques Hanging on their door, Ought to read: ~$$~ DR. KWAK Treats Gullibles Galore! ~$$~ Medical Malpractice and Pharmaceutical quackery Make Health costs soar; And add to suffering, Cutting to the core. Some MDs aren't better. Is your…
Pieces by Stephany Spencer- LeBaron: Author Luna Lindsey’s Story Shares Commonalities with Mine
Author and Speaker Luna Flesher Lindsey On July 7, 2016 I was cruising Social Media when I came across the fascinating and brilliant Writer Luna Flesher Lindsey.Her comments on Facebook grabbed me. I could relate to them becauseI too was ostracized while living in Utah from 1948 to 1960 among the LDS/ The Church of…
Poetry by Stephany Spencer-LeBaron:Homage to Detective Sam Brower, Author of “Prophet’s Prey:” A Chronology of Warren Jeffs, the FLDS, and Short Creek/Colorado City
Author and Private Investigator Sam Brower The Book "Prophet's Prey," was authored by outstanding LDS Mormon Leader, Activist, Detective, and Private Investigator Sam Brower. It is among the best books written on life within Mormon fundamentalist clans and enclaves. A film by the same title, "Prophet's Prey," opened in theaters on September 18th, 2017, based on…
Poem I wrote: In Love With a Narc: Unrequited Love
In Love With a Narc: Unrequited LoveBy Stephany Spencer-LeBaron Unrequited Love In Love With a Narc: Unrequited LoveWhy didn't I turn and run the other directionWhen I felt no empathy, Nor genuine affection?Thought I would win this lover over, This sexy simpatico handsome rover.His double-messages took me by storm. He love-bombed me beyond the norm!But this Dr. Jekyll-Mr.…
Don Leon Jonathan, "The Mormon Giant"
https://youtu.be/8y6iiN1Awd4 "The Mormon Giant" Don Leon Jonathan was the grandson of my grandpa Alma Dayer LeBaron's brother Leo LeBaron The Mormon Giant *By Kris WrayWhile Dayer LeBaron [Sr]'s eldest son Ben may have been able to do 100 push-ups in a traffic jam to demonstrate he was mighty and strong, and bellow out roars that…
Poem/song I wrote: A New Day’s Dawning
A New Day’s Dawning: By Stephany Spencer-LeBaron 1- I feel bad, I feel blue, Sad because this day is through; Still so much left to do; But tomorrow I'll start anew. For God gives, and God takes. Every day is a gift God makes. Too soon my life will be through, But Blues, be off…
Poetry/Song by Stephany Spencer-LeBaron: “In Mexico Down Past the Rio Grande”
Picnicking in the Canyons above Colonia LeBaron, Galeana, Chihuahua, Mexico In Mexico Down Past the Rio Grande by Stephany Spencer-LeBaronSong Version:1— In Mexico, down past the Rio Grande,I buried my diaries in the desert sand;Now they lie lost in a foreign land --Lost in LeBaron when I fled the clan.Buried my poems in the desert’s…
Review by Stephany Spencer-LeBaron: “It’s Not About the Sex” My Ass!
An update of my January 9, 2017 Review of "It's Not About the Sex" My Ass: Confessions of an Ex-Mormon Ex-Polygamist Ex-Wife: I don't usually do Book Reviews, for lack of time. But this book was so super, I listened to it straight through, on Audible; then listened to it again two times more -- then…
Poems I wrote: My Backyard Bird-Haven Wildlife Menagerie
Backyard Bird-Haven Wildlife MenagerieBy Stephany Spencer-LeBaron Photo by Frank Cone on Pexels.com Backyard Bird-Haven Wildlife MenagerieBy Stephany Spencer-LeBaronFor many years, I worked hardTo attract beautiful birds to my back yard.Feeding and watching them was healthy fun.By 2004, a Birder I’d become,Expanding my bird-feeders To sixty-one.My Birding Hobby couldn't be sweeter…Till I saw a squirrel fly overhead From…
Song I helped write: Short Creek/ Colorado City, Arizona-Utah: “They Changed the Name of Our Hometown”
Sing your song, Dance your dance, Tell your tale. ---Frank McCourt, Modern-day Dickens, Author of best-selling classics: Angela's Ashes, 'Tis, and Teacher Man They Changed the Name of Our Hometown* 1— They changed the name of our hometown the other day, But in the hearts of some Short Creek will always stay; The cliffs so high, the…
Pt 40-C: Esther LeBaron Spencer: Ma, Pa, Me, and Pitfalls of Polygamy
1953 Short Creek Raid arrest of my Fundy, 58-year-old father Floyd Otto Spencer; in front of our rock home in Short Creek, Arizona (Courtesy of Utah State Historical Society) Pt 40-C: Esther LeBaron Spencer: Ma, Pa, Me, and Pitfalls of Polygamy UTAH POLYGAMY: PANDORA'S BOXAlthough the box is full of evils, we must remember there…
Poem I Wrote: Less and Less the U.S.
Less and Less the U.S. More and moreWe're less and lessThe U.S. we used to be.Inflation, stagnation,Illegal immigrationThe global economy,Globalists, and more Diminish our Democracy.Now, as I scribe this,"Covid 1984"Is controlling me! Who's pulling the stringsOf our Bureaucracy?I'm all for improvementAnd equality.But that's not what I seePresently:My U.S. is a mess,No longer free. Bring back the…
Poem I wrote: Ultimately In Eternity
Ultimately in EternityI know God loves us all the same,And we all partake of joy and pain,Free will and choice, loss and gain;Plus a chance to Journey to the water's main,Drink and make a memorable name;And understanding of all things attain.God gives so much for free;And carries us when we're weakly.Though the journey's never easy,Lessons…
Pt 40-B: Esther LeBaron Spencer: Ma, Pa, Me, and Pitfalls of Polygamy
Pt 40-B: Esther LeBaron Spencer: Ma, Pa, Me, and Pitfalls of Polygamy Gifted Susan Ray Schmidt was part of my Uncle Verlan LeBaron's harem. After escaping polygamy, she penned the above super memoir. Her writer's voice reads like a 19th-century Jane Austen novel. “The root of all superstition is that men observe when a thing…
Pt 40-A: Ma, Pa, Me, and Pitfalls of Polygamy
Pt 40-A: Ma, Pa, Me, and Pitfalls of Polygamy Maud Lucinda McDonald LeBaron on her land in Colonia LeBaron, Mexico; with four of her sons, left to right: Floren, Alma, Verlan, Ervil "When a task is once begun,Never leave it till it's done;Be the labor great or small,Do it well or not at all." A…
Poems/doggerel I wrote: Notes, Quotes, Jokes; Pokes, ‘n’ Anecdotes
Bimbo Weeps: I'm sittin' alone in the moonlight, At the Heartbreak Hotel Café, Abandoned by women and men; And here's all I have to say: “I’ll never eat garlic nor onions again -- Not till my dying day --They've driven my possible friends away; Kept romance and intimacy at bay!"By Stephany Spencer BIG LOVE Bimbo…
DAVID M.’S LIFE STORY: (Anna LeBaron’s Half-Brother) The story you are about to read is true.
Caveat … The story you are about to read is true and I never killed anyone unless it was a justifiable homicide. Fulano's Blog Search Guest Blog: David Marston's Life Story (A Brother of Anna LeBaron) Posted on November 7, 2010 Caveat…The story you are about to read is true and I never killed anyone…
Pt 39: Ma, Pa, Me, and Polygamy on Parade
Pt 39: Ma, Pa, Me, And Polygamy on Parade My Mother: beautiful brainiac, talented, Esther LeBaron-McDonald Spencer "What the mother sings to the cradle goes all the way to the coffin."Henry Ward Beecher Our habits of perfectionism are deeply harmful: Perfectionism distracts us and keeps us from moving forward, out of a fear of messing up…
Pt 35a–38c: More LeBaron- Spencer Family History
Pt 35a--38c: More LeBaron-Spencer Family History “The less people speak of their greatness, the more we think of it.” ― Francis Bacon Pt 35-A: Alma Dayer LeBaron Lou Gehrig's Diseaseand "Who Got the Button?" Maud Lucinda McDonald LeBaron, Joel Franklin LeBaron, and Alma Dayer LeBaron Sr "A mother is she who can take the place of all others but…
Poem I wrote: Cast Your Worries to the Wind
Cast Your Worries to the windby Stephany Spencer-LeBaron My Uncle Joel LeBaron's favorite maxim"Cast your worries to the windLet the rain settle them"Was keen wisdom"To yourself be kind"He'd often remind"Leave negatives behindWind blows them awayDuring your daily grindRain settles all in time"Dump the big boulderDon't let it smolderToss over your shoulderThings you can't shoulderKeep lessons learned The insights…
Poem I wrote: Agenda 2021/2030 and End-times Fate
Agenda 2021/2030 and End-times FateBy Stephany Spencer-LeBaron If the Globalist Agenda to dominate, Vaccinate and exterminate Succeeds, by 2028, We'll no longer be allowed To congregate. That will ensure We can't hook-up,Meet, nor copulate;So humans will cease To propagate--Test-tube babies will Take the cake. By the time Most people finally awake, It will be way…
Pt 30-33: The Mexico-LeBarons: Bipolar Issues Vs. Incest
Pt 30-33: The Mexico-LeBarons: Bipolar Issues Vs. Incest*Please note: For some reason, this post is messing up--I'm unable to correct spellings or words; and WordPress Tech Support hasn't been able to solve the problems, either, so far. Pt 30: My Mama Esther LeBaron Spencer, Me, and Mental Illness My parents in 1964 with 13 of…
Review by Stephany Spencer-LeBaron: “The Blood Covenant” by Rena Chynoweth
Review by Stephany Spencer-LeBaron of my Aunt Rena Chynoweth's "The Blood Covenant" This Memoir, written over thirty-five years ago, struck me as the work of an immature apologist and revisionist. Its bias toward my Uncle Ervil's cold-hearted cult hangs like a cobweb over this tale co-authored by my Ex-Aunt, infamous Rena Chynoweth. The last I…
Quotes by Stephany Spencer-LeBaron: Writers Block
Point Blank: The point at which all thought leaves the frontal lobe and one comes face-to-face with writers block.~Dan Poynter WRITERS BLOCKPOINT BLANK: Point at which one's dry cartridge pen 'Ranges writers block "twixt gun and target." Stephany Spencer-LeBaron~~~~~~~~~Point at which one's brain is "shot" By the bullet of writers block.Stephany Spencer-LeBaron~~~~~~~~~ Doggerel, Blarney, 'n'…
Mormon Shunning, Ostracization, and Excommunication: Left to Die and Here’s Why
Circa 1970: Me at 23 after fleeing a Mormon fundamentalist cult in 1967 I'd rather be alone and unhappythan unhappy in a church that squelches meand no longer speaks to me.Stephany Spencer NOTE: The following blog is a heartfelt exhortion posted on Facebook by a cyberspace Ex-Mormon acquaintance. It's followed by my response. Bruce: I…
Rebecca Kimbel: Producer, Artist, Ex-Mormon Fundy, Human Rights Advocate, and Community Activist
NOTE: The following is a re-post of a past blog post. Since that previous posting, some things have changed: E.g., Rebecca Kimbel recently published her monumental Memoir: Born in Polygamy. I bought the manuscript last week on Amazon.com. I'm now in the process of reading this masterpiece that promises to be the Bible of all…
Pieces by Stephany Spencer- LeBaron: William P. Tucker’s Baby and Wife Left to Die by Cult, Sister, & Bill’s Buddy Stephen Silver
28-year-old Bill Tucker and 18-year-old Beulah Stephany Spencer-LeBaron de Tucker with our Six-month-old baby Asenath Marie "Where there's a will, there's a way." William James In July 1967, three months after my/our husband, William Preston Tucker/AKA: Bill Tucker (I say "our" husband because I was one of Bill's three wives), announced to the "church" he…
Books & Media That Changed My Life
Books & Media That Changed My Life for the Better oN MY JOURNEY from Fundism to freedom Born In Polygamy: A True Crime Autobiographyby Rebecca Kimbel | May 14, 2020 Escape Prisons of the Mindby Kaziah May Hancock | Apr 12, 2022 The mind-blowing truth about Roswell! “Read the best books first, or you may not have a chance to read…
Part 42-A–E: Megalomania and Making of the Mexico-LeBaron Mind
Pt 42-A:Megalomania and theMaking of the Mexico-LeBaron Mind Handsome Mexico-LeBarons Ervil, Joel, Verlan, Alma, and Floren Somehow we learn who we really areand then live with that decision."Eleanor Roosevelt I've long been on a quest to understand the making of the Mexico-LeBaron mind---its need to be number one, the best, in control of everyone---and always…
Pt 1-9: Floyd O. Spencer, Mormon LeBaron Cult Member
PART 1 My Memoir: My Daddy, Floyd Otto Spencer My Daddy, Floyd Otto Spencer, age 19 MY DADDY My Memoir Backstory “My Daddy” takes up where I left off writing “My Memoir Introduction: I Was Born a “Saint.” After I wrote this blog, I realized I'd put the cart before the horse -- started my Memoir bass-ackwards: I got myself…
Pt 1–18: Esther LeBaron Spencer, Me, and Mormon Polygamist Cults Unmasked
A Memoir: FLEEING POLYGAMY: Out of LeBaronism into the Lightby Stephany Spencer-LeBaron PART 1:Esther LeBaron-McDonald Spencer:My Mother: Image “Mother! For love of thee it was begun;In thy most honored name today ’tis done.And though all earthly cares must ceaseIn that fair land of everlasting peace,Love aye is one, and they who love…
Music Performance on Songmakers CD: “Tune Town”
I joined Songmakers organization in 1987. Music has always been an important part of my life. A multi-instrumentalist, the following link is a fun recording of the cut I made in 2004 accompanied by Vic Brandriff and Steve Durfee on a Songmakers' CD: "Tune Town:" To learn more about the wonderful Songmakers organization, its history, and venues, click…
Review by Stephany Spencer- LeBaron: THE LEBARON STORY by Esther LeBaron Spencer and Verlan LeBaron
Joseph Smith, Benjamin Franklin Johnson, Alma Dayer LeBaron, and Joel Franklin LeBaron Review by Stephany Spencer-LeBaron: THE LEBARON STORY by Esther LeBaron Spencer and Verlan LeBaron"The LeBaron Story" is truly a "Vanity Book" – not only because my uncle Verlan LeBaron paid a publishing company in 1981 (back when self-publishing was not the norm) to publish the book – but also because…
Review by Stephany Spencer-LeBaron: Scott Anderson’s “The 4 O’Clock Murders”
Investigative Journalist Scott Anderson, Author of The 4 O'clock Murders Scott Anderson's "The 4 O'clock Murders," published in 1993, is a must-read for those interested in a documentary of America's most bizarre but now apparently defunct crime family. The Doc chronicles the history of this extremist cult initiated in the late 1960s by the sociopathic serial…
Poetry and Art by Stephany Spencer -LeBaron: Letter to My Art Teacher: 6th-8th Grade Artwork
Civilization is social order supporting cultural creativity.Will Durant NOTE:Picture below elicited following poem: A Lyrical-Letter to My Art Teacherby Stephany Spencer-LeBaron NOTE: As a youngster, I always got an "A" on my Art work. But was worried I would end up with a "B" on the picture you see above, because I had to erase a…
Memoir: Chapter 1: My House of Cards
The Cards of Life Life dealt me cards — I played my hand With confidence — I had it planned … When, later, life revealed the score It shook me to my very core! I wondered then — still wonder now: Could I have changed my life somehow? And — if life dealt this hand…
My Review of Mary Trump’s “Too Much and Never Enough: How My Family Created the World’s Most Dangerous Man”
Donald J Trump as a young man My Review of Mary Trump's "Too Much and Never Enough: How My Family Created the World’s Most Dangerous Man" Don't waste your time and money on this screed ... this dirge ... this deplorable piece of clickbait, unless Donald Trump's your Scapegoat and you would thrive on a…
Memoir Introduction: I Was Born a “Saint”– a Slave!
INTRODUCTION I was born some time ago,Way out in the sticks,In a valley of old Mexico,In 1946.(So begins my saga.) “I am conscious that my narrativesavers of incredibility:The fault is in the subject,not in the narrator.”~The City of the Saints,By Richard F. Burton,1861*(Quote borrowed from Irving Wallace'soutstanding biography,"The Twenty-Seventh Wife")1961 The Cards of LifeLife dealt…
Review by Stephany Spencer-LeBaron: MAUD’S STORY by Charlotte LeBaron
In 2017, I bought and read Maud's Story, a 2013 self-published/Vanity Press book written by my Aunt Charlotte LeBaron -- my Mother's brother Verlan LeBaron's first wife. It's a short book consisting mainly of letters supposedly written by Maud Lucinda McDonald LeBaron* -- letters run-together in often hard-to-decipher paragraphs more akin to vignettes. It appears, at the time of this book's…
Review by Stephany Spencer-LeBaron: Luna Lindsey’s “Recovering Agency: Lifting the Veil of Mormon Mind Control”
"Recovering Agency: Lifting the Veil of Mormon Mind Control" By Luna Lindsey Review by Stephany Spencer -LeBaron:"Recovering Agency: Lifting the Veil of Mormon Mind Control"By Luna Lindsey On FaceBook in October of 2016 I discovered the excellent Writer Luna Lindsey. Then I learned she had written and published a book I, an ex-Mormon fundamentalist, needed to read:…
Poem I wrote: From My Diary As An Adolescent Mormon Girl
I'm in middle row, 2nd to left Oh To Be Just Me!I was born some time ago Way out in the sticks In a Mormon colony in Mexico In nineteen-forty-six|My family moved to the U.S. When I was only one – Right after The Great Depression And World War II were done.We're now eleven kids,…
Poetry by Stephany Spencer- LeBaron: My Hypnotic-Regression “Rebirthing” Session: Nascency in Mexico Down Past the Rio Grande
My Hypnotic-Regression "Rebirthing" SessionIn 1986 I learned it was possible to be hypnotized and taken back to the moment I was born. Being a curious person undergoing personal growth, self-discovery, and healing, I hired an excellent psychotherapist who specialized in doing psychological “Rebirthings.” Through my hypnotic-regression session, this licensed Mental Health Provider guided me back to the…
Media of Stephany Spencer-LeBaron: Famous ‘n’ Infamous Relatives
Famous 'n' InfamousRelatives "We all come from the past,and children ought to know what it wasthat went into their making."Russell Baker The following book by Diana Spencer's brother, Charles Spencer, the ninth Earl of England, chronicles the story of his Royal family. It may be of interest to Spencer families and anyone related…
Pieces by Stephany Spencer- LeBaron: Producer Doris Hanson
I recommend listening to Doris Hanson's YouTube interviews. She had her own independent TV show for many years. Now she produces her shows on YouTube.I've learned much from listening to these excellent interviews she has done of especially mainstream Mormons, but also Mormon fundamentalists who have left or escaped the Sect/Cult they were raised in.…
Memoir: I won and I Lost … Or How More Is Less
My family in 1958 (I'm 2nd to left, middle row) (NOTE: Not Hurricane High School: But this photo is the best depiction I could find of how I recall Hurricane High back when I attended 6th-8th grades there, between 1957--1960.) A Memoir Story by Beulah Stephany Spencer-LeBaron It was the 1959–1960 school year in small-town…
Poetry/Song by Stephany Spencer- LeBaron: “Painted Spring:” Take-off from Spanish Traditional Song “De Colores”
A Lesson Too Late In The Learning: Write It or Regret It Recently, at the California Writers Club, a fellow poet and guest speaker, Deborah Edler Brown, advised: "At the moment of inspiration, record it. Don't wait! For it's like babies lost you can never retrieve if you don't record your inspiration when it comes."…
Review by Stephany Spencer-LeBaron: Anna LeBaron’s “The Polygamist’s Daughter”
By Stephany Spencer: Review of my cousin Anna LeBaron’s Memoir: The Polygamist’s Daughter *Note:This is a re-post Review I wrote some years ago when Anna Le Baron's first Memoir came out. I hear she's now in the process of writing her second book. Follow her on social media sites such as Twitter and Facebook. And…
Pieces by Stephany Spencer LeBaron: SB102: Legalizing/Decriminalizing Polygamy
Circa 1962: Three weeks after I was married off in an arranged marriage, at age 16 to 26-year-old Mormon polygamist William Preston Tucker--who already had two other wives--one 6 years older and the other 15 years older than I. On Feb 10, 2020, a Bill was on the table in the Utah senate to reduce…
Part 42-E: Megalomania and the Making of the Mexico-LeBaron Mind
Part 42-E:Megalomania and the Making of the Mexico-LeBaron Mind 1953 Short Creek, Arizona Raid:My Mormon fundy mummy Esther LeBaron Spencer under arrest--her seven barefoot urchins in the forefront---plus another past-due in her tummy (Courtesy of Utah Historical Society) "Men occasionally stumble over the truth, but most of them pick themselves up and hurry off as…
Part 42-D: Megalomania and the Making of the Mexico-LeBaron Mind
Part 42-D:Megalomania and the Making of the Mexico-LeBaron Mind Circa 1964: My mother Esther LeBaron Spencer Leaving a cult is a lot likedriving at night with your headlights on:You may only see a few feet in front of you,but you can make the whole journey that way.Stephany Spencer-LeBaron(Takeoff from E. L. Doctorow): "Writing a novel…
Pt 42-C: Megalomania and the Making of the Mexico-LeBaron Mind
Pt 42-C: Megalomania, and the Making of the Mexico-LeBaron Mind Circa 1942: My mother Esther LeBaron McDonald de Spencer "Whatever we call the form–autobiography, memoir, personal history, family history–writing about one's life is a powerful human need.Writers are the custodians of memory, and memories have a way of dying with their owner.If it's a family…
Pt 42-B: Megalomania and the Making of the Mexico-LeBaron Mind
Pt 42-B:Megalomania and the Making of the Mexico-LeBaron Mind Mexico-LeBarons Grandmother Maud, Floren, Joel, Verlan, and Ervil A Rugged Constitutionalist: A Fundamentalist Mormon with a hard anti-government bent. Tell bleeding hearts that the Southern Poverty Law Centerhas listed the fundamentalists as a White supremacist, homophobic, antigovernment, totalitarian cult." PLYG: Ed Kociela In the previous blog,…
Part 42-A: Megalomania and the Making of the Mexico-LeBaron Mind
Pt 42-A: Megalomania and the Making of the Mexico-LeBaron Mind Handsome Mexico-LeBarons Ervil, Joel, Verlan, Alma, and Floren Somehow we learn who we really are and then live with that decision."Eleanor Roosevelt I've long been on a quest to understand the making of the Mexico-LeBaron mind---its need to be number one, the best; in control…
Pt 41-M: Ross Wesley LeBaron Sr and “More on” LeBaron Madness
Pt 41-M: Ross Wesley LeBaron Sr and "More on" LeBaron Madness Circa 2003: Stephany Spencer-LeBaron, age 57;36 years after fleeing polygamy and the cult "There are no heros. Only heroic decisions. You are never further than one decision away from making a difference. It doesn't matter whether it is a big difference or if it…
Pt 41-L: Ross Wesley LeBaron Sr and “More on” LeBaron Madness
Pt 41-L: Ross Wesley LeBaron Sr and "More on" LeBaron Madness My gifted, crazy, creative Uncle Ross Wesley LeBaron Sr A fanatic is one who can't change his mind and won't change the subject."Winston Spencer Churchhill Continued from "Pt 41-L: Ross Wesley LeBaron Sr and "More on" LeBaron Madness":The following exhibits come from gifted Uncle…
Pt 41-k: Ross Wesley LeBaron Sr and “More on” LeBaron Madness
Pt 41-k: Ross Wesley LeBaron Sr and "More on" LeBaron Madness gifted, crazy, creative Ross Wesley LeBaron Sr “Polygamy attracts the type of men who do not wish to be accountable to anyone; least of all their wives. Marriage was not a partnership.”Karen MILLER: "My Life as a Sister Wife" *Continued from "Pt 41-J: Ross…
Pt 41-J: Ross Wesley LeBaron Sr and “More on” LeBaron Madness
Pt 41-J: Ross Wesley LeBaron Sr and "More on" LeBaron Madness Circa 1921: Dayer and Maud M. LeBaron with first 6 of eventually 13 children to come;Back row, L. to R: Ben, Alma, Irene, JennyFront row: Ross Wesley Sr and Lucinda The great enemy of truth is very often not the lie–deliberate, contrived, and dishonest–but…
Pt 41-I: Ross Wesley LeBaron Sr and “More on” LeBaron Madness
Pt 41-I: Ross Wesley LeBaron Sr and "More on" LeBaron Madness Ross Wesley LeBaron Sr dancing with one of his many lovely daughters (Courtesy of Mary Bonnelle Taylor) In this blog, I continue with Tumblr-borrowed newsfeeds (See Tumblr for more such; and photos that didn't copy to these following newsfeeds): "The outcome of Thelma Elena…
Pt 41-H: Ross Wesley LeBaron Sr and “More on” LeBaron Madness
Pt 41-H: Ross Wesley LeBaron Sr and "More on" LeBaron Madness Beautiful, bright, talented Thelma Elena Cox(Courtesy of Mary B. Taylor and the Cox family) The following VERY old newspaper clippings were sent to me by an acquaintance who borrowed them off Tumblr: "Thelma Cox divorced Ross LeBaron Sr in fall 1948, although heavily pregnant…
STEPHANY SPENCER-LEBARON: 