The Thinker Ponderin' 'n' Wanderin':A Conversation with SelfBy Stephany Spencer-LeBaronAt seventy-one, I'm hungBy protruding nailsOn my ladder's last rung,Wonderin' what else I might've won ...Should I try for more before Life's done?Or should I commit to recreation,Cease ambition and aspiration;Cease trying to make more of myself.Simplify life, put strife on the shelf?Sure, I ponder, as…
Poem I wrote: In My Time
IN MY TIME (A Stephany Spencer Doggerel Rhyme) In my time, I won’t give in, I won’t give up. I’ll let today’s mirth Fill up my cup. In the darkest hours Of our imperfect world, I’ll look to the dawn As day’s unfurled. Then hold up my hope, Hold up my head, I won’t be…
Pt 19-P: Esther LeBaron Spencer, Me, and More Perils of Polygamy
My Memoir: Part 19-P -- Esther LeBaron McDonald de Spencer -- More Perils of Polygamy “As I sifted through my memories, my life came to me in bits and pieces, often disconnected, just like my dreams. Even normal memory has gaps, but traumatic memory is even more discontinuous. This is my story, which put…
Poem I wrote: The Sands of My Hourglass
THE SANDS OF MY HOURGLASSBy Stephany Spencer-LeBaron The Sands of My HourglassThe sands of my hourglass figureRunning through me,Telling me I haven't much time, Tick away what's left As quickly as hands On my inner circadian clock.I can't make the sands stop, Neither my heart pattering tick-tockLike raindrops drippingFrom the window panes of my life;Like…
Pt 19-O: Esther LeBaron Spencer, Me, and More Perils of Polygamy
My Memoir, Part 19-O: Esther LeBaron McDonald de Spencer -- And More Perils of Polygamy https://youtu.be/TqnyTqH55jw "Leaders who win the respect of others are the ones who deliver more than they promise, not the ones who promise more than they can deliver." Mark A. Clement Taking up where I left off in my blog "My Memoir: Esther LeBaron McDonald…
Part 19-M: Esther LeBaron Spencer, me and More Perils of Polygamy
My Memoir, Part 19-M: Esther LeBaron McDonald de Spencer -- And More Perils of Polygamy "To handle your self, use your head; to handle others, use your heart. George Bernard Shaw Taking up where we left off in"My Memoir: Esther LeBaron McDonald de Spencer -- And More Perils of Polygamy -- Part 19-L": Bill's second wife, Lolita, played mouthpiece for "the family" when,…
Part 19-K: Esther LeBaron Spencer, Me and More Perils of Polygamy
My Memoir, Part 19-K: Esther LeBaron McDonald de Spencer -- and More Perils of Polygamy "True leadership must be for the benefit of the followers, not the enrichment of the leaders." Warren G. Bennis Taking up where we left off in "My Memoir Backstory: Esther LeBaron McDonald de Spencer -- And More Perils of Polygamy, Part…
Part 19-J: Esther LeBaron Spencer, Me and More Perils of Polygamy
My Memoir, Part 19-J: Esther LeBaron McDonald de Spencer -- And More Perils of Polygamy "Human history becomes more and more a race between education and catastrophe." H.G. Wells Taking up where we left off in my last blog, "My Memoir: Esther LeBaron McDonald de Spencer -- And More Perils of Polygamy -- Part 19-I": My husband William Preston Tucker/ Bill Had…
Part 19-I: Esther LeBaron Spencer, Me and More Perils of Polygamy
My Memoir, Part 19-I: Esther LeBaron McDonald de Spencer -- And More Perils of Polygamy Beulah Stephany Spencer-LeBaron in 1972, age 26, and soon to graduate from UCLA after escaping polygamy in 1967!! "Man, created in God's image and likeness, is not just flesh and blood. The sexual instinct is not all that he has: Man is also,…
Part 19-H: Esther LeBaron Spencer, Me, and More Perils of Polygamy
My Memoir, Part 19-H: Esther LeBaron McDonald de Spencer -- And More Perils of Polygamy "History is little more than the register of the crimes, follies, and misfortunes of mankind." Edward Gibbon I left off in "My Memoir: Esther LeBaron McDonald de Spencer -- And More Perils of Polygamy -- Part 19-G" relating how I had come to realize people did not just…
Part 19-G: Esther LeBaron Spencer, Me and More Perils of Polygamy
My Memoir, Part 19-G: Esther LeBaron McDonald de Spencer -- And More Perils of Polygamy "Use power to help people. For we are given power not to advance our own purposes nor to make a great show in the world, nor a name. There is but one just use of power and it is to serve people."…
Part 19-C: Esther LeBaron- McDonald-Spencer, Me, and More Perils of Polygamy
MY MEMOIR Esther LeBaron-McDonald-Spencer, Me and More Perils of PolygamyPart 19-C Nearly all men can stand adversity,But if you want to test a man's character, Give him power. Abraham Lincoln MY MEMOIR Esther LeBaron-McDonald-Spencer Me and More Perils of PolygamyPart 19-C COUSIN HOMER'S KISS In Cousin Homer's kissThere'd be no connubial bliss.Though my first kiss and date,It was barely a kiss and hardly a date.But"Profit"of Evil Ervil…
Pt 19-B: Esther LeBaron Spencer, Me, and More Perils of Polygamy
MY MEMOIRPart 19-B Esther LeBaron McDonald de Spencer, Me, and More Perils of Polygamy The middle photo is the way I remember myUncle Ervil M. LeBaron in the 1960s A wise leader inspires and motivates, rather than intimidating and manipulating.Henry Ford Continuing where we left off in the previous blog,wherein my life was being hijacked in the name of…
Pt 33: The Mexico-LeBarons and Familial Incest
Pt 33: The Mexico-LeBarons and Familial Incest * My maternal great-grandparents Lucinda Mariah Emmerson and William Wesley McDonald "The heart of the mother is a deep abyss at the bottom of which you will always find forgiveness."Honore De Balzac Incest on my maternal grandfather Alma Dayer LeBaron's side definitely contributed to the mental illness prevalent in…
Pt 38-C: Farewell to Floren McDonald LeBaron: The Last of The Mexico-LeBarons
Farewell to Floren McDonald LeBaron: The Last of The LeBarons FLOREN MCDONALD LEBARON The Last FarewellIN MEMORIAM "THE BEST IS YET TO COME!"(My Uncle Floren's favorite saying)~~~On February 17, 2019, Two months before his 92nd birthday, Floren McDonald LeBaron Left this earthly helm To join his family In a heavenly realm. Fourth youngest of thirteen kids,…
Poem/song I wrote: A New Day’s Dawning
A New Day’s Dawning: By Stephany Spencer-LeBaron 1- I feel bad, I feel blue, Sad because this day is through; Still so much left to do; But tomorrow I'll start anew. For God gives, and God takes. Every day is a gift God makes. Too soon my life will be through, But Blues, be off…
Poem/Song I Wrote: “In Mexico, Down Past the Rio Grande”
Picnicking in the Canyons above Colonia LeBaron, Galeana, Chihuahua, Mexico In Mexico, Down Past the Rio Grande by Stephany Spencer-LeBaronSong Version:1— In Mexico, down past the Rio Grande,I buried my diaries in the desert sand;Now they lie lost in a foreign land --Lost in LeBaron when I fled the clan.Buried my poems in the desert’s…
Review of “It’s Not About the Sex” My Ass!
An update of my January 9, 2017 Review of "It's Not About the Sex" My Ass: Confessions of an Ex-Mormon Ex-Polygamist Ex-Wife: I don't usually do Book Reviews, for lack of time. But this book was so super, I listened to it straight through, on Audible; then listened to it again two times more -- then…
Song I helped write: Short Creek/ Colorado City, Arizona-Utah: “They Changed the Name of Our Hometown”
Sing your song, Dance your dance, Tell your tale. ---Frank McCourt, Modern-day Dickens, Author of best-selling classics: Angela's Ashes, 'Tis, and Teacher Man They Changed the Name of Our Hometown* 1— They changed the name of our hometown the other day, But in the hearts of some Short Creek will always stay; The cliffs so high, the…
Poem I Wrote: Less and Less the U.S.
Less and Less the U.S. More and moreWe're less and lessThe U.S. we used to be.Inflation, stagnation,Illegal immigrationThe global economy,Globalists, and more Diminish our Democracy.Now "Covid 1984"Is controlling me! Who's pulling the stringsOf our Bureaucracy?I'm all for improvementAnd equality.But that's not what I seePresently:My U.S. is a mess;No longer free. Bring back the AmericaWe used to be!Bring…
Poems/doggerel I wrote: Notes, Quotes, Jokes; Pokes, ‘n’ Anecdotes
Bimbo Weeps: I'm sittin' alone in the moonlight, At the Heartbreak Hotel Café, Abandoned by women and men; And here's all I have to say: “I’ll never eat garlic nor onions again -- Not till my dying day --They've driven my possible friends away; Kept romance and intimacy at bay!"By Stephany Spencer BIG LOVE Bimbo…
DAVID M.’S LIFE STORY: (Anna LeBaron’s Half-Brother) The story you are about to read is true.
Caveat … The story you are about to read is true and I never killed anyone unless it was a justifiable homicide. Fulano's Blog Search Guest Blog: David Marston's Life Story (A Brother of Anna LeBaron) Posted on November 7, 2010 Caveat…The story you are about to read is true and I never killed anyone…
Poem/Song I Wrote: Life’s Dash
LIFE'S DASH My cousin, the famous Eddie LeBaron “There'll be two dates on your tombstone And all your friends will read ‘em; But all that's going to matter- Is that little dash between ‘em.” Kevin Welch LIFE'S DASH by Stephany Spencer-LeBaron 1- Between the dates of birth and death, There's always a little dash -- To…
Pt 35a–38c: More LeBaron- Spencer Family History
Pt 35a--38c: More LeBaron-Spencer Family History “The less people speak of their greatness, the more we think of it.” ― Francis Bacon Pt 35-A: Alma Dayer LeBaron Lou Gehrig's Diseaseand "Who Got the Button?" Maud Lucinda McDonald LeBaron, Joel Franklin LeBaron, and Alma Dayer LeBaron Sr "A mother is she who can take the place of all others but…
Poem I wrote: Agenda 2021/2030 and End-times Fate
Agenda 2021/2030 and End-times FateBy Stephany Spencer-LeBaron If the Globalist Agenda to dominate, Vaccinate and exterminate Succeeds, by 2028, We'll no longer be allowed To congregate. That will ensure We can't hook-up,Meet, nor copulate;So humans will cease To propagate--Test-tube babies will Take the cake. By the time Most people finally awake, It will be way…
Pt 38-A: Esther LeBaron & Floyd Spencer: Fights, Plights, and Physical Punishment
Pt 38-A: Esther LeBaron & Floyd Spencer: Fights, Plights, and Physical Punishment My older sister, twin sisters, and I: Mama had her hands full! When you lead your sons and daughters in the good way, let your words be tender and caressing, in terms of discipline that wins the heart's assent."Elijah Ben Solomon Zalman Whatever…
Pt 36: Mom, Dad, and Dayer LeBaron’s Death
Pt 36: My Mom, Dad, and Dayer LeBaron's Death My mother Esther LeBaron Spencer with the 7 youngest of her 14 children "Mother love is the fuel that enables a normal human being to do the impossible." Author Unknown In one or two places, my Grandmother Maud LeBaron is recorded as having said: "Joel "must be…
Pt 35-B: Alma Dayer LeBaron, Lou Gehrig’s Disease, and “Who Got the Button?”
Pt 35-B: Alma Dayer LeBaron, Lou Gehrig's Disease, and "Who Got the Button?" My maternal Grandpa, Mormon fundamentalist Alma Dayer LeBaron Sr. For Mormon fundamentalists, allowing everyone, including people of color and women, to have equal rights, is a sin against God.We were regimentally trained in blind obedience and self-sacrifice from our earliest memories. We…
Pt 35-A: Alma Dayer LeBaron, Lou Gehrig’s Disease, and “Who Got the Button?”
Pt 35-A: Alma Dayer LeBaron Lou Gehrig's Diseaseand "Who Got the Button?" Maud Lucinda McDonald LeBaron, Joel Franklin LeBaron, and Alma Dayer LeBaron "A mother is she who can take the place of all others but whose place no one else can take." Cardinal Mermillod Joel Franklin LeBaron -- namesake of his Great-uncle Joel Johnson, Benjamin Franklin Johnson's…
Pt 34-A: Esther LeBaron Spencer, The Mexico-LeBarons, and Hearing Voices
Pt 34-A: Esther LeBaron Spencer, The Mexico LeBarons, and Hearing Voices The young and the old of my Grandpa Dayer LeBaron "There is only one way to bring a child upin the way he should goand that is to travel that way yourself."Abraham Lincoln IF it's true Grandpa Dayer's grandfather B.F. Johnson said he held a…
Review of My Aunt Rena Chynoweth’s “The Blood Covenant”
This Memoir, written over thirty-five years ago, struck me as the work of an immature apologist and revisionist. Its bias toward my Uncle Ervil's cold-hearted cult hangs like a cobweb over this tale co-authored by my Ex-Aunt, infamous Rena Chynoweth. The last I checked, this book was still in the public libraries. But sadly in…
Pt 32: Esther LeBaron Spencer, The Mexico-LeBarons, and Mental Illness
Pt 32: Esther LeBaron Spencer, the Mexico-LeBarons, and Mental Illness "The conscience of children is formed by the influences that surrounded them;their notions of good and evil are the result ofthe moral atmosphere they breathe."Jean Paul Richter We left off last week with this assertion: People should take responsibility for their actions; not project blame…
Pt 24: Ma, Pa, Me, and Polygamy on Parade
Pt 24: Ma, Pa, Me, and Polygamy on Parade Life's HighwayTo everyone their openethA way, ways, and a way;And the high soul takes the high way,The low soul takes the low;While in between on the misty flatsThe rest drift to and fro.But to everyone their openethA high way and low.And everyone decidethThe way his soul…
Pt 23: Ma, Pa, Me, and Polygamy on Parade
My Memoir: Ma, Pa, Me, and Polygamy on Parade -- Part 23 "People see what they want to see till they want to see." Dena McLean (My cousin) I left off in blog, "Pt 22: Ma, Pa, Me, and Polygamy on Parade," saying: Mama preached polygamy and told people they would go to hell if they did…
Pt 21: Ma, Pa, Me, and Polygamy on Parade
~ Pt 21: Ma, Pa, Me, and Polygamy on Parade “Civilization is social ordersupporting cultural creativity.”Will Durant Taking up from "Pt 20-A-J: Ma, Pa, Me, and Polygamy on Parade," it bears restating that one of my Mormon fundamentalist sisters who married so many Misters never ever caught on ... never bothered to catch on how to check out, before she…
Pt 20-J: Ma, Pa, Me, and Polygamy on Parade
Pt 20-J: Ma, Pa, Me, and Polygamy on Parade People see what they want to see, believe what they want to believe; It's impossible to reason with an irrational person. Stephany Spencer I left off in "Pt 20-I: Ma, Pa, Me, and Polygamy on Parade" saying in the cult I came from, a Mormon fundamentalist man usually…
Pt 20-I: Ma, Pa, Me, and Polygamy on Parade
Pt 20-I: Ma, Pa, Me, and Polygamy on Parade My family in 1964 -- one sister absent) Abuse: “When fear rules, Obedience is the only survival choice." Toni Morrison "God Help the Child" My parents, though trying prodigiously to do what was right, foolishly spawned a bunch of foot-washing fundamentalist children bound by fear and…
Pt 20-G, Ma, Pa, Me, and Polygamy Parasites
My Memoir: Pt 20-G, Ma, Pa, Me, and Polygamy Parasites “Everything can be taken from a person but one thing: The last of the human freedoms – to choose one's attitude in any given set of circumstances, to choose one's own way. Viktor Frankel "Man’s Search for Meaning” Continuing where we left off in "Pt 20-F, Ma,…
Poem I wrote: My Life’s a Wreck
Point blank: The point at which all thought leaves the frontal lobe and one comes face-to-face with writers block. Author unknown/Dan pointer? Point blank: 1- The point at which one's empty cartridge pen pummels the range between a gun and its target called writers block. 2- The point at which one's brain is shot through…
Mormon Shunning, Ostracization, and Excommunication: Left to Die and Here’s Why
Circa 1970: Me at 23 after fleeing a Mormon fundamentalist cult in 1967 I'd rather be alone and unhappythan unhappy in a church that squelches meand no longer speaks to me.Stephany Spencer NOTE: The following blog is a heartfelt exhortion posted on Facebook by a cyberspace Ex-Mormon acquaintance. It's followed by my response. Bruce: I…
William P. Tucker’s Baby and Wife Left to Die by Cult, Sister, & Bill’s Buddy Stephen Silver
28-year-old Bill Tucker and 18-year-old Beulah Stephany Spencer-LeBaron de Tucker with our Six-month-old baby Asenath Marie "Where there's a will, there's a way." William James In July 1967, three months after my/our husband, William Preston Tucker/AKA: Bill Tucker (I say "our" husband because I was one of Bill's three wives), announced to the "church" he…
Pt 1–18: Esther LeBaron Spencer, Me, and Mormon Polygamist Cults Unmasked
A Memoir: FLEEING POLYGAMY: Out of LeBaronism into the Lightby Stephany Spencer-LeBaron PART 1:Esther LeBaron-McDonald Spencer:My Mother: Image “Mother! For love of thee it was begun;In thy most honored name today ’tis done.And though all earthly cares must ceaseIn that fair land of everlasting peace,Love aye is one, and they who love…
Review of Scott Anderson’s “The 4 O’Clock Murders”
Investigative Journalist Scott Anderson, Author of The 4 O'clock Murders Scott Anderson's "The 4 O'clock Murders," published in 1993, is a must-read for those interested in a documentary of America's most bizarre but now apparently defunct crime family. The Doc chronicles the history of this extremist cult initiated in the late 1960s by the sociopathic serial…
Memoir: I won and I Lost … Or How More Is Less
My family in 1958 (I'm 2nd to left, middle row) (NOTE: Not Hurricane High School: But this photo is the best depiction I could find of how I recall Hurricane High back when I attended 6th-8th grades there, between 1957--1960.) A Memoir Story by Beulah Stephany Spencer-LeBaron It was the 1959–1960 school year in small-town…
Review of Cousin Anna LeBaron’s “The Polygamist’s Daughter”
By Stephany Spencer: Review of my cousin Anna LeBaron’s Memoir: The Polygamist’s Daughter *Note:This is a re-post Review I wrote three years ago when Anna Le Baron's first Memoir came out. I'm happy to tell you she is now in the process of writing her second book. Follow her on social media sites such as…
Part 42-A: Megalomania and the Making of the Mexico-LeBaron Mind
Pt 42-A: Megalomania and the Making of the Mexico-LeBaron Mind Handsome Mexico-LeBarons Ervil, Joel, Verlan, Alma, and Floren Somehow we learn who we really are and then live with that decision."Eleanor Roosevelt I've long been on a quest to understand the making of the Mexico-LeBaron mind---its need to be number one, the best; in control…
La Mora, Sonora, LeBaron American-Mexican Drug-Cartel Tragedy
Rancho La Mora, Sonora: LeBaron-American-MexicanMassacre NOTE:Due to the recent Mexico-LeBaron tragedy, I interrupt my regular-scheduled blog to post the following Memorial. MSN.COM: US Victims in Mexico massacre were tied to family with long history of violence In Memoriam: My condolences to my extended-family members and friends murdered in the recent Rancho LaMora, Sonora, Mexico massacre.I'm…
Pt 41-A: Esther LeBaron Spencer and “More on” LeBaron Madness
Pt 41-A: Esther LeBaron Spencer and "More on" LeBaron Madness My mother Esther LeBaron-McDonald Spencer "What lies behind us and what lies before us are tiny matters compared to what lies within us."Ralph Waldo Emerson In "Parts 39--40-B: Esther LeBaron Spencer;Ma, Pa, Me, and Pitfalls of Polygamy," I discussed issues of perfectionism in my grandparents Maud and…
First Blog
My First Blog Beulah Stephany Spencer-LeBaron, 2015, age 69 7/2016 Hi! I'm Stephany Spencer/AKA: Beulah/ Stephany Spencer-LeBaron. Welcome to my little corner of the world-wide web -- my "virtual" piece of internet real estate! Feel free to click about and find out what's useful. If I may be of help, please contact me. I'm…
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